Friday, October 23, 2009


It's been a while since I wrote again. I've been hard(ly) at work on my capstone paper, doing research and working.

I've had to keep taking a lot of medicine since the last time I wrote. I generally try to not take any medicine because I hate it. I have been taking anywhere from 6-12 pills a day now though and I'm slightly worried about that.

Like clockwork, my shoulder problems are back. This time they have been so bad that I cannot sleep and am having a lot of problems doing everyday things. This morning it took me ten minutes (not kidding) to change shirts because my arm just wouldn't move the right way. My other shoulder is having problems too, but definitely not to the extent of the right one. A big problem with my shoulder having issues is that the same feeling tends to spread throughout my arm (i.e., my wrist is aching pretty often also).

For one of the first times in my life, I can say that I feel handicapped. My arm hurts so bad that I can't really do normal everyday things right (or at all, in some cases). I feel as though some people think I am exaggerating or making up problems since they are not readily seen. This is, I feel, the most problematic effect of the disease. I can handle the pain to a point and I can handle not being able to do certain things, but for people to doubt me makes all the other problems seem that much worse.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


Since my back has been doing better, I really hadn't had many complaints.

My boyfriend and I went to Chicago over the weekend. It was tons of fun and I felt great the whole time. Late last night though, I started to not feel so hot. Right now, I know I have a fever (without checking? Gasp!) and my apartment was pretty chilly already. I am pretty tired (exhausted - we could go there) and my appetite really has been waning a lot lately.

Hopefully this is just related to my JRA (definitely more likely than not) and not because I am getting sick or anything.