Saturday, April 30, 2011


Imagine the enthusiasm and anger with which the handsome Gerard Butler screams this phrase while kicking that other dude into that hole. Now imagine a pissed off patient in a rheumatologist's office.

Okay, so it didn't quite go like that.

I told him straight up I'm done taking the mtx, so I'm not taking it anymore. And I feel so much better already!

I should be starting Humira soon, but will be needing to get financial assistance with that. Walgreens called to tell me that was ready today. Eep. Waiting for my TB test Tuesday/Thursday and then I'll learn how to shoot myself up. Yay!

Also, I've been offered a really unique ability to blog for another website. But I'll have more about this later!

Tonight, I'm off to a free 80s vs 90s music battle/concert/awesome event. And, since I'm off the mtx and can drink a little more now, I plan on thoroughly enjoying myself :)

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

"Remember your hippopotamus oath!"

After hearing from my primary doctor FINALLY, my rheumy's nurse tried to call me today to get me to come in sooner. I'm not going to do it.

At this point, I'm not so sure I want to even go in on the 28th.

From what my primary care dr said, it seems like all my rheumy wants to do is reevaluate my current medications and give me a referral to the pain management clinic... just like I said.

I just don't know how to handle the appt at this point. Thoughts?

Monday, April 11, 2011


I feel like I am having the worst day ever.

I couldn't sleep last night because of a killer migraine. Who knows how much actual sleep I got, but it wasn't much. Of course, the migraine had to set off my wisdom teeth too, so that made my night/morning that much better.

That finally stopped, and now my fingers are hurting like crazy and spasming a bit again, despite my muscle relaxants.

Oh yeah, that was pretty much all my primary care doc would do for me - muscle relaxants & new migraine meds. I didn't try the latter, but we'll see if they're better than imitrex.

The best part about all of it? She doesn't understand why my rheumy wouldn't handle pain meds either. Apparently, she's going to give him a call. But that'll just result in him telling her to send me to the pain management clinic, which will be crazy expensive and take forever to get into.

Oh well, I tried.

Also, I found out I didn't get my fellowship that I applied for. At this point, I'm ready for a break from school and would like to just exist for a while. We'll see what happens.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

A world of pain

Okay, so my rheumy's office apparently doesn't handle pain meds. Not quite sure what to think about that. They 'treat' the disease, but not the symptoms? Except if I'm flaring, I might be able to get more steroids...? Something here doesn't make sense. They weren't even willing to discuss any of that with me. Whatever.

So in the meantime, life sucks. I have an appt with my 'primary care' doc tomorrow. Hopefully she can give me something for pain. Otherwise, it's a referral to the pain management clinic... which I'm sure would be helpful, but I just can't afford it - the cost or the damn wait.


Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Now we play the waiting game

I called the DR's office today, to get better pain meds. I am missing classes that I'd rather not be missing because I'm in so much pain that I can only make it through one class - if I'm able to go at all.

Supposedly I'll hear back tomorrow or Thursday. I'm really pessimistic about what he'll say, since he "doesn't prescribe narcotics" and this damn ibuprofen makes me crazy sick to my tummy, yo.

Can we fast forward a few days?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

My aching feet!

I have worked the last four days in a row (including today, so by 3pm anyway). Normally, that wouldn't be an issue, but I haven't really worked a schedule like this since I started my mtx. And boy, am I tired.

My feet are killing me - probably because I haven't really had an opportunity to sit down at work the last couple of busy days, while I'm training someone new too.

We're a little under-staffed at work, so I've been doing more to help out. And I've even been proactive and offered to take over social media for the hotel. So that's kind of fun. But I've run out of energy. It's a good thing I have tomorrow off (but I have to write a paper! bah!).

I'm looking forward to being able to get a little more rest once we get back up and fully running, but who knows when that will be for sure right now.

All I know is I'm ready to be done with work for a few days.