I'm having odd muscle issues. It's happened a few times before, but always in my sleep so I didn't really think anything more of it than an odd muscle cramp or migrating charlie horse. But apparently, when I actually got to look at it, I realized how fucking creepy it was.
Sorry, there's not another way to put it.
So Christmas, right? I worked a lot. I woke up and my right leg was super tense. My right heel hurt like a bitch - it hurt to walk, hurt to put pressure on, but I fought through it.
Later in the evening, the leg muscle tension has moved into my right foot. We are watching X-Files and waiting on nummy pizza when all of the sudden, the three middle toes on my right foot froze. Maybe even my pink too but it's so small I wasn't really paying attention to it.
They didn't just freeze like in place either. They fucking curled down towards my foot. It was like all the muscles in my whole leg down into my toes froze up. It was like that for, oh, a minute at the absolute most but probably 30-45 seconds realistically.
It was the scariest fucking thing I've seen in a while.
The muscles are tense today, but not as bad. I don't know how or why this happened. I googled it, obviously, to find that it could be lack of potassium, magnesium, from my RA, or from Parkinson's or MS.
My great grandma essentially died from complications caused by her MS. I watched her, as a very tiny girl, lose her mobility. I have very few memories of her before her Amigo go-cart. Things just got worse and worse for her. She eventually had a stroke, and ended up in a nursing home with a broken voice box because of the dip shit doctors.
And I have always been afraid that is going to happen to me too.
Yay for borrowing trouble and googling stupid shit my body does.
PS if you've had this, want to share what's up? Please?