Saturday, May 21, 2016

Mental Clutter

Spend a little time clearing your mental clutter by writing down everything that's on your mind so that you can release your worries and be more present in conversations today.
Do you feel that your worries have less of a grip on you now that you've taken some time to purge them in this way?
I am worried about leaving my job. I know that I am making the right choice, but I worry still. 

Will I be able to stick to this schedule I have outlined in my mind that involves visiting the gym daily in order to regain my strength and to work on becoming healthier?

Will I be able to push myself enough to get Chronic Sex as a project and potential non-profit off the ground?

At the very least, will I be able to take care of keeping our apartment clean and general housewife-type stuff?

Is this the beginning of the end of real work for me? When will I be bad enough off that I have to look at disability? How does this affect our potential future plans to get a house?

I worry about how this will impact my place of work. I try to act like I don't, but I do. This is the main reason why I have had any second thoughts I have encountered. They're very small, but still there.

Will I be able to pull myself away from taking a break to start all this? Will I really be able to take a break?

I doubt it, but I am going to try.

I'm burnt out. I'm tired. I'm ready to take the next step, to stop working for someone else and do work that is desperately needed.

Maybe it'll help me figure out how to eat again. Even with this prednisone burst, I'm not hungry and that frankly scares me.

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I do feel better after writing this out. I enjoy activities like this which allow us to really examine what we're doing and worrying about.

I think it's natural here for me to have concerns. After all, I'm looking at starting like an official organization? It's a little daunting.






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