Before writing this post, I’d either look at it and think that 10 things were really a lot to think up, or that it wasn’t enough to encompass the things I need or love the most.
The list below is in no particular order, except the order my scattered brain gave them 🙂
- The boyfriend
If you’ve been reading my posts lately, you’ll know why. He’s amazing and he helps me out so much more than I’ll ever admit, even to him.
- My friends
I don’t spend a lot of time in-person with most of my friends. Some live tons of miles away, and others just have schedules that are hard to match sometimes. Some of them I have never even met in person. Even if we aren’t able to spend time together, they are such a source of inspiration and comfort for me. One of my very best friends recently turned down a job in Texas to stay at the college she works at here in Wisconsin. I was excited for her career-wise if she had taken the job in Texas, but I am so happy that she chose to stay here. I like having her around, even if like I said we don’t get to spend much time together.
There are some days when I can barely make it to the couch from my bed. Having the laptop opens a world of opportunities for me that I wouldn’t be able to have otherwise. I’m so grateful for it.
- Smart phone/iPod Touch
Likewise, my smart phone and iPod make even more things possible for me. Maybe I need to lay in bed more, or maybe it’s tough some days to use my laptop. My smart phone has a swype feature, meaning I can type by connecting letters instead of finger pecking individual keys. It can definitely be a lifesaver on says my fingers don’t want to type.
I don’t mean this in the literal sense, because without the sun we would all die. Yay ice ages. But I mean it more from the standpoint of being outside in nature and soaking up the sun. One of my favorite things to do is to drive around on a nice day with the radio cranked up and the windows down, wind blowing my already crazy hairstyle all over the place (tip: much better for your hair than a blow dryer). No matter how sick I feel, this is always something I love to do. Feeling the sun on my skin and having that warmth baked into me is one of the most amazing feelings as well.
I love rain just as much as sunshine. Having grown up in the northwest, I’m very used to the rain. It can be calming, can represent and help me get out my emotions, and sometimes it just feels amazing to run around in. I love wearing flip flops in the rain, and feeling that water on my toes. I love the way it smells around raining time – fresh, new, vibrant. And sometimes rain can break humidity, which is such a wonderful thing to have happen. I can’t even explain the difference in pressure on my joints… except maybe that it’s kind of like having a tooth that badly needs to be pulled. When it gets pulled and the pressure in that area is gone, it feels so much better. It’s kind of like that, only in the all over balloony joints.
You guys are like my therapists, and you don’t even know it. Blogging helps me express so many parts of myself that are hard to share with others, even the boyfriend sometimes. It’s hard to say to him, “I’m hurting really bad lately and I feel worthless and scared.” But I know that I can put it on here. He’ll read it, sure, but it’s different than having to admit that directly. Blogging led me to volunteering more. Now I get to be involved with the autoimmune arthritis community more, through my roles as an Arthritis Ambassador for the Arthritis Foundation and as a volunteer for the International Autotimmune Arthritis Movement (IAAM). As a part of all this, I’ve made some of my closest friends, and for that I’m very grateful.
I use laughter to diffuse tense situations and to get out my nerves and stress. There is nothing worse than being stressed and in pain and unable to fix either problem. Laughter helps me do that, and not take myself too seriously. Plus it is an amazing pain reliever sometimes.
- Electric toothbrush
From a really practical standpoint, it can be really hard to brush my teeth. Holding a tiny toothbrush and having to put pressure in while making circle motions just isn’t something that is comfortable (and sometimes even possible) for my hands. My electric toothbrush is a lifesaver.
I have two of them. Though I have only had to really use one for a few times, it is a comfort for me to know that they are there if I need them. I think of them almost as a kind of security blanket I can lean on.