It’s been a while since I wrote again. I’ve been hard(ly) at work on my capstone paper, doing research and working.
I’ve had to keep taking a lot of medicine since the last time I wrote. I generally try to not take any medicine because I hate it. I have been taking anywhere from 6-12 pills a day now though and I’m slightly worried about that.
Like clockwork, my shoulder problems are back. This time they have been so bad that I cannot sleep and am having a lot of problems doing everyday things. This morning it took me ten minutes (not kidding) to change shirts because my arm just wouldn’t move the right way. My other shoulder is having problems too, but definitely not to the extent of the right one. A big problem with my shoulder having issues is that the same feeling tends to spread throughout my arm (i.e., my wrist is aching pretty often also).
For one of the first times in my life, I can say that I feel handicapped. My arm hurts so bad that I can’t really do normal everyday things right (or at all, in some cases). I feel as though some people think I am exaggerating or making up problems since they are not readily seen. This is, I feel, the most problematic effect of the disease. I can handle the pain to a point and I can handle not being able to do certain things, but for people to doubt me makes all the other problems seem that much worse.