There are many days where I fret over the consequences of any actions I may take. The pain from Arthur and the house guests he’s brought along has caused me to miss family things and special events not to mention the pains and emotional effects of being in pain so much. Out of every single day in my life, there is one that I need to be pain free.
I’m getting married August 16th, 2014. It is my great grandmother’s birthday, though she died due to MS over a decade ago. She was strong and feisty, and I wish she would have been around as I grew older. But I digress.
I’ve already put 6 months of planning into this day, with 16 months to go. We have a venue, a dress, and the cakes chosen with deposits paid. We have so much to do, but we know I have a lot of time to do it in. The day before we will have to decorate and get things set up and ready to go. I don’t even have any idea how I’ll sleep the night before.
I just want to be painless, just for this one singular day. I want to be able to enjoy my day and my wedding without having to entertain Arthur like the drunk uncle no one wants to invite but does because he’s family. I want to run around and visit with everyone, instead of sitting and having them all come to me. I want to dance like there is no tomorrow and stuff my face with cake without worrying about how I’ll be able to walk the next day.
I just want, for the most special and important day in my life, to be normal. Just that one day is all I ask.